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The End of the mourning.Sycamore's cries fade
into the damp morning air
as I step unto your grave
knowing you're lying down there
I kneel down on the hardened stone
close my eyes and relive memories
memories of long ago
and the dark disguises my cries
I fall down and feel the rain
slowly soaking who I am
draining all of the old pain
clotting it up with the sand.
and I try to melt myself
so I can travel with the water
lightning moves and clock says twelve
and my soul carries on further
A body lying in the sand
on an early digged grave
out of heaven reaches a hand
and gives back all she ever gave
skin becomes mud and blood is water
and all that's left is a heart
every other part of her gathers
They're no longer apart.
LeavingI'm not alright
when I try to talk
it all just ends up in a fight
I'm not alright
I'm feeling hurt
by what you did
and I'm still clinging to your shirt
my heart is hurt
what gives you the right
to slowly end my light
how can you say you love me
and keep hurting me
why don't I stop
just set you out of my mind
and let you drop
why don't I stop
I still believe
A very small part of me
thinks we can be
I still believe
Why do I cry
When every single tear is waisted
At this time
but I still cry
and don't look back
just pull it off
as a matter of fact
just break the bonds
it will be healthier that way
but I don't
want to be alone
I have no heart
that's made of stone
I'd rather die
then leave him now
I wanna go
I guess I had
all this world´s worths
I told you so
I wanna go
lonelilyher eyes turn to the darkside
to the angsty point within
she should have turned from it when she could
it's a no good thing
she gives in to the soar pressure
of tears behind her eyes
She is of no use here
she came lost with the ties
she used to be so strong for him
and he'd be happy beyond life
but this power seems to have faltered
as has her place as wife
she wonders, could she help him still?
but feelings seem to have went
there's no smile on his face anymore
should she now descent?
she loves him with all she has
but she still seems to think
she's not the one to make him happy
and then she starts to drink...
dissappearancewho ever said,
that the woman of a dissapearing man
who ever thought,
that the man dissapearing
did not commit naught
who came to the conclusion
that maybe, the end of this
would come out of our mouths, in usion.
who believes in mirth
when the only thing she feels
who wanted to shout
but couldn't, because all she had
who ever tried
to live without his true love
so what is the end of this?
will I keep to be the caring one
hiding what I miss
for do I need security?
for a man I love, and will ever cherish
I'd like to care for more then just me.
for in moonlight shone
her hoping golden eyes
are all alone
she bows her head in shame
should never have been so caring
for a picture in a frame.
and her outstretched hand
will ever be waiting
for a man that never came.
meant to beplease understand I'm ascared
of my feelings for you, and the power they have.
I've walked into a trap before
one more may be the path to death
when in your arms, I trust you fully
easy, loved and happy there
but dark cold nights and misunderstandings
make the promises unclear
thinking you'd use me,rape or abuse me
laugh about me whenever I can't hear
I get afraid of physical contact
shouldn't love be stronger then fear?
feeling uneasy, around you when I
stay here and you are away
feeling unsure about taking a step back
cause I love you more then I can say.
many times the tought of forbidding
you any physical contact at all
has flown in and out of my mind
I'm quite afraid to slip and fall
stepping back to protect myself
trying to get you out of my head
but before I ever tell you of the desicion
I get overwhelmingly sad.
because you are and were meant for me
I don't want to turn away
just understand that I am scared
that you will ever say:
It was never meant to be.
Three GuessesThree guesses I give you today
To guess what life is for.
Why life is like it has its ways
Three guesses and no more
Dont break your head too much my dear
You have till life its end
And many here have found before
The reason why lifes meant.
And somewhere in a life like yours
The answer will not run.
As clear as is the summer sky
Just blinded by the sun.
The humans turn their head away
Afraid to take their sight
More answers dont occur to men
Because of mostly fright.
Turn your head towards the sun
Dont ever blink your eyes
It may take your sight away
And clear away the lies
Experience what you before
Didnt dare to try
Nothing will occur to you
If youre ever shy.
And if you stand at heavens gates
I hope youre satisfied
That you lived through whole your life
And havent died inside.
Then standing at the heavens gates
The questioner will ask
have you fully lived today
lived without a mask
no doubt will be seen on your
DarknessHello darkness my old friend
I'm surrendering again.
Giving way into my pleasures
and how much in love i am.
I can't say no or reject you,
what you ask me is fulfilled.
While I'm giving all to help thou
my own will is gone and killed.
And my hand reaches out to touch you
kiss your lips or hold your hand.
My own heart is half and shattered
I cant ever say I cant.
Wanna be with you and wonder
why there is no way for us.
While they often try to tell me
I cant handle that much loss.
Now were alone and were parting
dating new girls as you must.
My feelings still remain in hoping,
While yours seem to be of lust.
And now I see all of the good things
while youre friends only see bad.
My innocence is down the peelings
after all the tears I shed.
Want to say goodbye and love him
torture myself.. but its best.
but than I get your invitation
And I'm easier then guessed.
Feeling empty and on wires
I go back to your old place.
Where i full fill
SilenceSilence to the grave
A foul deed long forgotten.
The intruder gave
Nothing he had gotten.
Silence tears the soul
Rips the one apart.
One with deed so foul
Ripped in little shards.
Loneliness to health.
Health to loneliness.
No one bears the guilt
So I stand up straight
Look you in the face.
Here, you have my faith
Fall within lost grace.
powerlessI can see your face in my mind
drained of power.
lifeless eyes, turned down face
that make my own mirth cower
The knowledge you won't call tonight
but still the time goes by
why is it so hard on me
so hard I could cry
A tear drop i can't catch tonight
a warm hole I can't fill
the lips unreachable to kiss
the remorse I can't kill
The hand I can't lead to my mirth
the body I can't cover
the eyes I cannot force to shine
no role fulfilled as lover.
I am powerless
across the long distance I run
run hard to your relieve
across your heart I try to fill
afraid you will deceive
and when I finally reach your bed
afraid it'll be empty
you ran, you hid away from me
you locked and lost the key.
A heart, a heart so far away
that set me to it's hand
my pain, my pain that hurts me so
unable yet to end.
I'd suffer all, my whole life long
I'd give my life for you
I'd throw away everything I have
I am willing to
raindrops walk over my face
as I run on to him
my black silken dress wet and drained
untitledwhen she sleeps,
the inside of her mind is a spanish lullaby
just gentle chords strung into a
beautiful tapestry of sound. her skin
smells of oranges and cloves, and her hair is
cinnamon brown. she reminds you of
the feeling of waking up in the morning,
thirsty. she is the song you play for
every kind of weather
every kind of mood. you feel her
fingers on your cheek when you sleep,
you dream she's there with you. and even
when she's far away,
you hear her like the voice of a flute.
a haunting sound carried on
the wind, past hills and fields and
home to you.
what love is not.it was a s l o p p y first kiss where
my drunk lips fumbled against yours.
the dull thwack of my heart,
locked behind curved ribs
cleared my groggy brain,
clouded with lustful premonitions.
it was an e l e c t r i f y i n g first kiss where
you entwined your hands in my hair.
your mouth encompassed mine and
my breath became lost in the steady
of your chest.
it was a s h y first kiss where
i pulled away before you could explore.
your tongue grazed my teeth,
searching for a way past the ivory gates.
i dug my finger into the stubble along your jaw,
my nail lulling your carnal desires.
it was my first kiss with you.
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